Diana Kaswadi sucks): She didn't come over in the end because her dad didn't allow because naughty girl went out earlier on already.TSKTSK.And now she's away in msia.Btw,cheer up sweets<33

I'm scared to lose one more friend.Please,tell me it's not you.I know I've not been the most fantastic friend but hey c'mon cut me some slack.I've only known you for about 4 months.You don't expect me to know everything about you and everyday BUT I am learning more and more things about you and I'm understanding you better.So please,tell me this friendship is not gonna fade because I love you!=)

Auntie Nora and Uncle Roberto are properly now 1 hour into their flight and on their way to Frankfurt!Which they will then later transit and then go on to Budapest!ZOMG,So not fair))): I want to take an aeroplane as well and go to Budapest)))):

I'm very bored and tired..
so...
GOODNIGHT:D

THE LOVE

Tuition!In!2!Hours!Time!):
Not looking forward to it actually.Because because!It's E Math and A Math and plus,I'm not exactly in my mood to think.Hehehehe:D And the last 2 lessons has been so demoralizing because I cannot do Circular Measure and Trigo&Identities for nuts while Eileen is sitting there doing it in a breeze.Frustrating!

My!Aunt!Is!Going!Budapest!With!Her!Swedish!Husband!):
I want to go to): I think Hungary would be a a place I'd love to go because for one I love the historic sites and I'm a sucker for those things.Plus!If I'd rather travel with them since my uncle is Swedish and he can speak their language!They're going for 10 days to meet the relatives there and blablabla..She better bring back something nice other than Paprika which is well-known in Hungary.Hahahaha(:

Diana!Kaswadi!Is!Coming!Over!Later!(:
Yayy:DThis should be fun.I wonder if she is really gonna do her math stuff here or would she just be stoning and fooling around just like the other time when I was at her place.Huhuhu.

I!Need!To!Play!Pool!(:
I have this urge to play pool.
DAMN.
I must let Mikoh teach me her way.Cause she's fucking good laaaaaaaaa!

Have you noticed my style of blogging?
Hahahaha.
Randomness

HELLO BEAUTIFUL WORLD

Happy CNY to those celebrating:D

Today!I!Finished!School!At!1000HRS!:D
Hahaha,I felt like rubbing into you suckers who finished school as per normal.Hehe:] Don't mind me will ya?:D

Couldn't meet up with Saz and Lina today though.Tenet):

In the morning,I wasn't in my best of mood and was like whining it to Nisz.I really felt like shit and I wanted to punch her*(no,not Nisz la!) in her* face.If I was close enough,I would have!Then at Redhill,I saw Gadis:D:D So I told her to wait with me for Mikoh.And 3/4 of Royals walked to school together.Oh the awesome times(: I miss everything about last year,btw.I'll talk about that some other time.Then reached school concert blablablabla.FAST FORWARD!

Decided to watch Ghost Rider with Mikoh.Mikoh says,Nicholas Cage is old but still fuckable.HAHAHA:P Cabbed to cineleisure with Siew Ling and Si Jing.Had lunch with them at LJS.I think Siew Ling's hilarious!She's scared of birds and balls.HAHAHA.Watched ghost rider together with Mikoh,Yun Heng,Debbie,Shona and Narmatha.Everything was not planned!

I LOVE GHOST RIDER<333333333333333333333333333333333333333
Hehhh:D

After that,Yun Heng decided to go play pool.So went to Meridian.I wanted to play at first but upon seeing Xiaoyun's,Debbie's and Mikoh's skill I decided to just watch together with Shona and Narmy.Hahahaha.Xiaoyun's damn amusinggggggggggg:D Hehh.

Then blablablabla.Fast Forward!

I'M HOME:D

Btw,I think horoscopes are scary.They're always so true.Today my horoscope says...

Gemini:
It isn't hard to hold on to your morals and ideals when you have great people supporting every step you take. Rally your dearest friends today and do something fun. Remind yourself how lucky you are to have these people in your life -- doing so will enable all these people to realize how lucky they are to have you in their lives! Do not concern yourself with solving major problems or disputes today. Just live and let live.

Over You but Still Love You!

I am in my brightest mood.

I thought through things and I've made up my mind.I'd choose the most wonderful friendship with you rather than falling for you and being awkward and all:] In simple terms,I'm over you and now I can be myself around you.Kukuhead,I Am:D

I hope I'm right with my decision and I hope I stick to it.Marion and Mikoh did knock some sense into my head.So yes:D

Tomorrow is CNY celebration.School finishes at 10am.I'm meeting Lynx♥ at 2pm.Nenek lina is coming:D:D:D OH YEAHHHH.

Meeting Mikoh in the morn.Whoopeedeedoodaaa.I miss that bitch.
MUAHAHAHA.

OKAY I'M OFF:D

Back To School:D

CLICK
This video is hilarious.Mainly for malays la.Cause some parts of the song is in malay.Hehh.

I!Am!Going!To!School!Tomorrow!I bet Tay Xueli already misses me:D HAHAHAHA.And randee.and marion.and mikoh.and gadis.and syira.and EVERYBODYYYYYYYY:D

I suddenly thought of Daniel.
I MISS DANIEL!!!

I miss the smelly girl with the stolen tiara=/

Sweetest Joy:]

Did I loved you a little too late?

I didn't go to school today)))))): So I didn't take my english,malay and social studies paper.Fever,sore throat and flu.Just wonderful>:( Angry angry angry.I really miss school actually.REALLY.

I need someone to talk to but just don't know who to turn to.My only choice is you.Even if it hurts when I tell you about it,you're the only option I've got because you know me most and you know about this most.Just promise me one thing,Don't Mislead Me.

I suddenly thought of Kak Hash.I dunno why also!

I'm feeling very random.And Nerice,congratulations for having a date with Mr Keong on VDay.HAHAHAHA.Maths remedial huh!HAHAHAHA:P poopoo.

I'm off.I want to sleep.

Study Date

1.Vday gift from Diana.Even that weird so called MAGIC stone!haha.
2.What Del and I drew.Diana is Liyana's smelly sister who stole her sister's tiara!
3.Del and I part 1.
4.Del and I part 2.
Pictures taken with Delight.But I really was at Diana's house:D Hahaha.
Yes,Delight,Wani and another girl whom I dunno her name were over cause Liyana invited them.So Diana ask me to come over.

Went there to study for awhile.Not totally productive but at least I managed to understand A Maths for the first time:D The others were happily eating and I was in the room studying while Diana was preparing her vday gifts.Thanks,btw:]

After that was just playing playing playing.Omg,Diana is so mean>:( Kept tickling me.IDIOT!I poke poke you,you not ticklish at all.HMPHHH.Not fair.One day I'll find out your weakness.I know,ME:D HAHAHAHA:P Kiddingg.Delight ate TUNA with NUTELLA sandwich.Like,ewwwwwwww.YUCK DEL!!

Then around 7 went home.Diana walked me home.She got very excited the minute she saw my cat.But my cat is scared of you,loser:P Huhuhu.Then gave her the gift.Or gifts actually=/So here I am.Studying Social Studies:D HURRAH.I found out it was SEQ.god,I'm such a dingdong:(

Okay I'm off.
Peace<3

What made you think I was happier with her as company?=/ I think I'm completely misled.

I've suddenly become so numb=/ I don't know what to think.I don't know what to feel actually.Hmm.

Thanks for yesterday anyway.I guess talking to you did make me feel better in some ways.But I really don't know where this is going anymore): It's still sucks if you really want to know.Everything's in a mess.

Didn't go cross country.I've got sore throat and flu)))))): SUCKS OKAY!My throat hurts like shit.I don't like it!!!GRRRRR)):

I finally finished my vday gifts.YAYYY.I'm a happy girl.

When I finally told you,I guessed I felt relieved like a wholeeeeeeeee load of my shoulders.It's a secret between me and you.Wahoooo!I love you still<3 :D And yes,I'll turn straight.But shut up, maybe not now.Let me embrace this moment!HAHAHAHA(:

Nerice darling,cheer up<333333 it'll all be okay.Weeeeeeee.And thank you for being there darls.

I LOVE LIFE:D

"a friend is more important and im writting all out,
can i share a lil more but will it be a pour out,
am i jealous yeah i think so,
wouldnt hide that from you,
coz all the things that you've shared,
made me wanna be wit you,
we're friends, and thats special and all,
it seems that now we're faded and you're closer to them all"
-Adapted from Rauzan's A Friend Is Better Than That.

I wanted to die when I heard that song.It really hit me hard.That's how much you mean to me.When Rau said that verse,I immediately thought of you.There's nothing I can do.Just put my hands together and pray that one day it will all be okay.Will we still be friends by my birthday?I wonder=/

*rhyming totally unintentional!*

awak,awak.
kalau awak tak nak kawan dengan kiter lagi kan,
awak tolong main jauh-jauh boleh tak?
awak jangan ader depan mater kiter lagi tau?
okay,terima kasih awak!

I WANT MY NIKE AIR FORCE ONES)))))))):

I think the shoes are all like SUPERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR HOTHOTHOT!I shall not rant any further or it will just make me so frustrated!

I'm missing you.YOUYOUYOU>:(

as im sittin by the window, starin at the sky thinkin bout everything that's ever happened in my life the rain hittin my face, i feel a sudden pain now this empty space's starin at me, like i was on stage and this loneliness is killin me, i cant understand but no matter how i try to fight it, it wont go away so, im startin to get used to it, it happens every day the playground's wet, so the kids cant play puddles on the sidewalks, so aint nobody there and im left alone with nothin, and aint nobody cares next second i'll be thinkin bout you and the way you left cant believe you had to leave, and now we're no longer friends guess its destiny, and it aint goin the way that we planned every man's gotta face it, so i aint gonna pretend as i hold my hands together, prayin for a chance hopin that when i wake up tommorrow, it aint gonna rain if the sun wont shine then its not worth fightin so im not gonna try i'll just hold my head high let it rain, let it rain if it aint gon stop, let it rain

Bolded ones are usually the ones I'm really feeling.
Gahhhh):
How I fucking miss you.

You lose one,you gain another=)

It doesn't matter.Bad things come with good things.I've got irritating people surrounding me.But I've got wonderful people like Marion,Saz,Nerice,Jess and Mikoh to confide in.Lost 1,Won 5.I wouldn't mind at all:D even if that 1 person you lost is so fucking dear to your heart

Today school was pretty okay day.Walked to school alone and it was quite calming.Like,I didn't have to bother about anyone or anything.Just me walking in the breeze.It felt like freedom.It felt like love

Lessons were pretty okay.E Math is such a bore.I want Mrs Diana Tang backkkkkkkkkkkk >:( Mrs Seah is beyond boring.I hope Mrs DT returns sooooooooooooooooooon!Bleaaaaaa.

Stayed back for CNY decorations!BEST BEST OKAY:D very very fun.screaming 90% of the time.Hehehehe(: Marion,Randee,Sheryl,Mikoh and Syira were there.So quite hilarious la.Sheryl and Randee left early.So did Marion.Later on got chased out of class so had to go down to study pavillion.Was only 6pm so wasted time with syira until 6.30pm.Went back with her and Diana.Hilarious like shit.but all's good.Diana,we're even.You gave me 2 kisses and i returned back the 2 already okay:D Anddddd,biler orang nak tidor jangan kacau.Poke me with pencil some more >:( Don't love you already.

I miss LYNX and BUDX!
And!
BUDX THOUGHT MY BAND UNI WAS MY SCHOOL UNI.
budx,you kekek la can!

Things are not very funny anymore.Sure I could poke fun about people thinking I am together with her but hey,everyone's got their limit.It ain't that funny anymore,i tell you once again.I realized it was quite fucked up when tabitha said "i see you every morning with that girl.is she your gf?" it definitely put me down so early in the morning.like hello?anybody ever heard of friends?ugh,whatever.

call me petty call me silly call me whatever you want.i'd rather u call me that than have rumours flying around hotter than pancakes.

btw,
I DON'T FUCKING CARE,YOU.

1.Trombone Section♥:Me,Nerice,Roslina,Hanis,Adilah and Jia Hui.
2.Crazy Moment Part 1
3.Crazy Moment Part 2
4.3rd Trombonists!with Jia Hui MIA.Nerice and I(:
5.Tessa,I,Nerice and Jia Hui.Suppose to be an all 3rd Tbonists picture but Tessa popped out of nowhere!
6.Tessa and I.
7.Wen Jun,The Drum Major
8.Percussion Section.EMO KIDS xD
9.Emi and I.supposedly a try at the EMO shots.Hah!
10.Nerice,Sleeping mode;) picture deletedXD
11.Marion,Rachel and I.My fringe was out of place.OH NOOOOO):
12.I and Nerice.She didn't want to look at the cam.I was seducing her.Hehehe(:
13.Drum Major and I.My favourite TANNED PERSON(: Haha;D
14.I and Diana(:
15.Trumpet Section with their balloons!adorable!
16."That's why I'm in band not ____"-Xi Ling. HAHA
17.I and Ying Tong!
18.Xing Liang,sleeping point.Hehehe.

QUINTESSENCE 2007 WAS AWESOME<333333333 style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic; color: rgb(153, 0, 0);">Michelle Koh Hui Shan,thank you so much for the chocolate.It really made my morning that you remembered!♥ LOVE YA! Trombone section,thanks♥ no words can explain what I'm feeling!

I was feeling very high at SCH.And Nerice is the best:D:D(and you better keep quiet about it k.if not you die!)she is so bimbotic!HAHAHA."[flings hair] jialat!" HAHAHA(: No one else can do it like we do.I hugged a lot of people!and it made me feel good:D Wheeeeeeeee.

Was tired and everything.packing up blablabla.But thank god Dad came to fetch.Sent Diana home first.Wheee.Thanks for the goodnight kisses,it made my day end on a good note.Hahaha(: You're so amusing.and happy guessing dearie:P

I need to know.

DOES ANYONE CARE ANYMORE ABOUT THEIR FRIENDS?!

i thought a friend was someone whom you loved and would never forget even when you found new ones.i thought a friend was someone who doesn't mind being with you even if you were filled with a thousand flaws because they love you the way you are.i thought a friend would be able to accept you for who you are.i thought a friend was someone like YOU.

But I guess,I thought WRONG.

I'm absolutely glad(:

I'm not at all in denial about my feelings.I just let them be.What's the point of denying it anyway?I like someone,so what?I know it'll fade anyway.That's why I'm not really worried about it.I'll just keep quiet and let my heart smile ever so widely when I see the person.Oh What Joy(:

Something still doesn't feel right though.I wonder.

Ho hum.Ta dum ta dum.No tuition today!My tutor's got some work to finish up.She takes up accountancy in NTU.-gasps-

You weren't you=/ Have you changed?I'm afraid you have.I'm scared to lose you.I'm scared that you might just drift away from me.You can have as many friends as you want.Even if they're people I don't like.But please,don't change.Cause I'll cry a thousand buckets if you did.I like you the way you are]]]]]]]]]]:

It's a very sleepy day.
I'm off!
CHEERIOS.

BESTIES♥

I just felt like putting that up because I've not taken a picture with Jess for the longest time.And going back home with her yesterday was good:D It was bliss again.I miss the times with her in class.It sucks that we're not in the same class anymore): I MISS YOU JESS.You're my CHACHARD AND MEREPAK GIRL♥

Thanks to LYNX♥ for being there for me when I needed you.I really don't know what I would have done without you.Thank you for telling me to be strong.Thank you for sharing my sadness and happiness.Thank you for being there.Thank you for being you<3

And!Diana Kaswadi,If I lost someone like you I dunno wtf would happen to me!That dream felt too real and that's why I smsed you and asked you if you were angry at me.I was shit scared.I DUNNO WHY.I'm just so peculiar.I was scared all because of a dream.I was scared if it would be a reality.

Michelle Koh Hui Shan,I better get a date from you soon.SOOOOOOOOOON PLS(:

It seems like as if I'm making a dedication to all my baby darlings.It sounds like as if I'm dying.Well,I'm not cause.....

SIAODINGDONG SUPER HAPPY ERZA IS BACK(((((((((((((((((:
I'm so pleased with myself.NO MORE EMONESS.
-kallang waves
HEHEHEHE(:

see!TOLD YA I'M BACK.
hehehehehhehehehe
<333333

PEACE!<3

There's never a right time to say goodbye.
But I gotta make the first move
Cause if I don't
You're gonna start hating me.
Girl,it's not you it's me.

How can I say I'm losing you when you weren't even mine from the start?

I don't get myself anymore.I think I lost ErzaEfiera): Because the Erza Efiera I used to know was a hyper girl who didn't let anything get her down.But now,that Erza Efiera is gone.She is now just glum and bad mooding every single day.It has come to a point where she's capable of hurting her loved ones.I'M SO SORRY,FRIENDS.I love all of you.I'm so sorry that I'm letting all these things affect me.I promise,Erza Efiera will be back.I PROMISE.

And just like that,I've fallen.Fallen too deep.
I'm not your everything.
So right now,I'd rather be nothing.

I'M SORRY):
I just am.I'm so sorry I can't explain myself.But I'm just sorry.You don't know how bad things are getting.

I need Diana to sing songs for me):

I

FEEL

SUPER

EMPTY

WITHOUT

TALKING

TO

YOU

)))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.I cannot help it but to laugh at the tagger named anon on my blog.HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Have you any other better things to do rather than guessing whether I'm together with Diana or not?You are so free!JEEZUMS!I shall leave you guessing,wondering and pondering over it.I won't answer it.If you seen me and her around,you'll get the answer la!

People who are close to me,You know the answer.And it's like a DUHHHHH thing.

Diana,I rolled on the floor laughing my butts of reading the tag.HELLO LOVE(: My truest deepest loveliest love!HAHAHA:P Funny like shit k!

Today was an okay day.A lil sad actually.Ah nvm

PEACE!<3